Chrissy Teigen has quickly earned herself the title of one of the most lovable mums in Hollywood.
Now Chrissy’s revealed her personal life hasn’t always been so smooth-sailing, explaining she’s been dealing with post-partum depression since April 2016.
In an essay for Glamour magazine, Chrissy opens up about her struggle in the hope that it will offer other women the comfort of knowing that they’re not alone.
“I had everything I needed to be happy. And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy,” she writes. “What basically everyone around me—but me—knew up until December was this: I have postpartum depression.”
After giving birth, Chrissy recalls, “Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful. My lower back throbbed; my shoulders—even my wrists—hurt. I didn’t have an appetite. I would go two days without a bite of food, and you know how big of a deal food is for me.”
By the end of the year, Chrissy and John decided to go to the doctor to see if there was any explanation.
“I looked at my doctor, and my eyes welled up because I was so tired of being in pain. Of sleeping on the couch. Of waking up throughout the night. Of throwing up. Of taking things out on the wrong people. Of not enjoying life. Of not seeing my friends. Of not having the energy to take my baby for a stroll.”
When the GP then read out the symptoms of PPD, Chrissy recalls ticking almost all of them off. Her diagnosis? Postpartum depression and anxiety.
“I also just didn’t think it could happen to me,” she says. “I have a great life. I have all the help I could need: John, my mother (who lives with us), a nanny. But postpartum does not discriminate. I couldn’t control it.
And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do.”
After the essay went live, Chrissy took to Twitter with another important message, don’t treat her any differently now you’ve heard her story.
And just like that, Chrissy got even more awesome.
Read the whole essay here