In a new interview with Vanity Fair, Adele revealed that she suffered from postpartum depression after having her son, Angelo.
This is the first time the ‘Rolling in the Deep’ singer has spoken out about her struggle. “I had really bad postpartum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me,” Adele told the magazine. “One day I said to a friend, ‘I fuckin’ hate this,’ and she just burst into tears and said, ‘I fuckin’ hate this, too.’ And it was done. It lifted.”
Prior to suffering from postpartum depression, Adele didn’t realise that the condition could rear its head in many forms. “My knowledge of postpartum—or post-natal, as we call it in England—is that you don’t want to be with your child; you’re worried you might hurt your child; you’re worried you weren’t doing a good job. But I was obsessed with my child,” she said.
“I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life… It can come in many different forms.”
Adele felt like a terrible mother but eventually realised she had to be kinder to herself. “I just said, I’m going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the fuck I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, ‘Really? Don’t you feel bad?’ I said, I do, but not as bad as I’d feel if I didn’t do it.”
“Four of my friends felt the same way I did, and everyone was too embarrassed to talk about it; they thought everyone would think they were a bad mom, and it’s not the case. It makes you a better mom if you give yourself a better time.”